THE NIGHT BEFORE (AGAIN)

So here we are. It’s almost like we’ve gone full circle and come back to the beginning again. I feel like I can almost take my 2nd or 3rd post on this blog and just copy and paste. It’s been such a life changing journey already and, if you think about it, we’re only really halfway through.

We were sat eating lunch this afternoon before I had to go back to work when, without really realising it, I let out a little sigh…….

“You ok, what’s wrong”

“Nothings wrong, I’m ok. I just want tomorrow to be here already so we can have more answers”

“I don’t. I just want to run away and hide”

It’s at this point I realised how Sam really felt. All she wants to do is sit in the corner of the room (with her hands covering her ears) and wish that it would all go away. She knows we have no choice but to hit it head on, but the butterflies and knots in her stomach must be intense.

The MRI went without a hitch yesterday, however, there was no ultra sound scan because that’s scheduled for next Monday morning instead. Sam mentioned it to Jill (our cancer nurse) because the surgical team wanted it done before this meeting, but she said it would be ok as they would probably have a good idea of what they want to do already (as far as the lymph nodes are concerned).

Sam’s hair has started to come back slowly. At the moment she’s got this thin whispy covering on her head. I don’t know how long it will stay there for though because it’s quite brittle. It just seems to snap off when you pull it. I’m in two minds whether to shave it again because, even though I’m pretty sure it will strengthen it up, I’m very aware that she’ll have to go through this annoying whispy stage again from the start.

So, 2pm is our appointment with the surgical team tomorrow. It’s where we’ll get the results of the MRI and find out what they have planned to get rid of this thing. In the meantime, positive thoughts is what we’ll need and positive thoughts is what we’ll have. 🙂